City Girl Astray
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Welcome All!
Hello and thanks for stopping by.
As I stated above I am in my 30's and raising my children in upstate NY. I decided to create this blog for a few reasons. One was to be able to rant, another was to have a way to chart my (fingers crossed) hopeful progress and the last was because I met with the most wonderful woman, (Author Shelly Reuben) the other day and she inspired me to embrace the good, shed the bad and chase my dreams. FYI, I have done none of the above, EVER!
I am 1 of 5 children and we struggled so much that I never really thought "outside the box" while we were growing up. I briefly flirted with what could possibly have been considered a goal at the time, and that was to become a fighter pilot in the Air Force. Granted it was after I saw "Top Gun" but after seeing my moms look of disbelief when I voiced this aspiration, it lasted all of 5 seconds. But still, it was there.
We are a surviving people, us Newyoricans (Puerto Rican born and raised or living in New York). I was an excellent student up until High School. I even got an award from the Mayor. I let peer pressure and wanting to finally fit in, lead me astray (I had returned to NY from a 3 year hiatus in Florida my mom took us on when she escaped my then abusive father and according to all of the ribbing I took I "talked like a blancita" a white girl). I became a mother at 16 and have been struggling to provide for myself and my children since then.
Granted, I have had some lucky breaks in the work arena. At 19 I scored a rockin' position at New York's "Planet Hollywood" virtually right after it opened (Ah Nepotism, my mom and aunt worked there- tee hee). I worked in the gift shop department and became a manager and employee trainer in less than a month. I reconnected with my best friend Jaz and met my sons' father there. During those few years I also worked for "Hard Rock Cafe New York" and the now defunct "Fashion Cafe". I met movie stars, super models and was working at Usher's quasi Breaking out bash.
A few years later I starting working at a Fortune 500 Reinsurance Firm on Wall Street. Not to bad for a girl from the Bronx with no High School Diploma, heh? (Since then I have gotten my GED and taken a couple of college courses).
I now work for my local FOX and My Network TV affiliate as a receptionist and Traffic Clerk. For those not in "the Biz" lol, Traffic refers to the commercials between show segments. We have 2 channels and I am in charge of the commercials for the My Network channel.
I have made excrutiating mistakes, read: both my "marriages". I have made some bad decisions i.e.: moving upstate, seemingly giving up and having no desire to keep my looks up, gaining about 65 lbs, dating the worst serial coast to coast dater/heartbreaker, not returning to church, starting to smoke again after 9 years, being too afraid to follow my passion of writing and owning my own business and not being stern enough with my children.
But I do want to find out who I really am, get back some of the old me and try new things. I want my children, family and friends to be proud of me. I want to be proud of myself.
Hope you stay along for the ride, chat with ya all later.
As I stated above I am in my 30's and raising my children in upstate NY. I decided to create this blog for a few reasons. One was to be able to rant, another was to have a way to chart my (fingers crossed) hopeful progress and the last was because I met with the most wonderful woman, (Author Shelly Reuben) the other day and she inspired me to embrace the good, shed the bad and chase my dreams. FYI, I have done none of the above, EVER!
I am 1 of 5 children and we struggled so much that I never really thought "outside the box" while we were growing up. I briefly flirted with what could possibly have been considered a goal at the time, and that was to become a fighter pilot in the Air Force. Granted it was after I saw "Top Gun" but after seeing my moms look of disbelief when I voiced this aspiration, it lasted all of 5 seconds. But still, it was there.
We are a surviving people, us Newyoricans (Puerto Rican born and raised or living in New York). I was an excellent student up until High School. I even got an award from the Mayor. I let peer pressure and wanting to finally fit in, lead me astray (I had returned to NY from a 3 year hiatus in Florida my mom took us on when she escaped my then abusive father and according to all of the ribbing I took I "talked like a blancita" a white girl). I became a mother at 16 and have been struggling to provide for myself and my children since then.
Granted, I have had some lucky breaks in the work arena. At 19 I scored a rockin' position at New York's "Planet Hollywood" virtually right after it opened (Ah Nepotism, my mom and aunt worked there- tee hee). I worked in the gift shop department and became a manager and employee trainer in less than a month. I reconnected with my best friend Jaz and met my sons' father there. During those few years I also worked for "Hard Rock Cafe New York" and the now defunct "Fashion Cafe". I met movie stars, super models and was working at Usher's quasi Breaking out bash.
A few years later I starting working at a Fortune 500 Reinsurance Firm on Wall Street. Not to bad for a girl from the Bronx with no High School Diploma, heh? (Since then I have gotten my GED and taken a couple of college courses).
I now work for my local FOX and My Network TV affiliate as a receptionist and Traffic Clerk. For those not in "the Biz" lol, Traffic refers to the commercials between show segments. We have 2 channels and I am in charge of the commercials for the My Network channel.
I have made excrutiating mistakes, read: both my "marriages". I have made some bad decisions i.e.: moving upstate, seemingly giving up and having no desire to keep my looks up, gaining about 65 lbs, dating the worst serial coast to coast dater/heartbreaker, not returning to church, starting to smoke again after 9 years, being too afraid to follow my passion of writing and owning my own business and not being stern enough with my children.
But I do want to find out who I really am, get back some of the old me and try new things. I want my children, family and friends to be proud of me. I want to be proud of myself.
Hope you stay along for the ride, chat with ya all later.
Labels: business, dating, goals, single parent, weight loss, writing
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